why am i angry?
i am always angry!!! i have been angry since i was a little girl. i am always mad. i get mad over every thing! i have seen doctor over doctor, and weirdo after weirdo, the place i live in sucks. the so called "doctors" think about putting you on medication but when the medication doesnt work they blame you, saying "well i dont beleive the medication is causing your deperession," bull!!!!! every medication they given me
breaks me down to the lonley crying thing, i get so deperssed i dont care whats around me. i get mad at my grandmother, mother, my little brother, my boyfriend, the cats, the dogs, ppl walking down the street, my friends, everything and even me some times!!! i have gotten so out of control i will hurt who ever or what ever is near me. when i get really mad my eyes go from green there normal color to yellow like a cat. i black out on the sound and i lose some of the things i do. i only remember pieces. i thought my bf was cheating on me when i looked in his messages on face book, it felt like i was going to have a heart atack! i remember hitting him then the next minute im sitting out side next to the van crying and pulling my hair out. i have wanted to be normal all my life, but its like im am alien or a monster. to make matters worse im 14 weeks pregnant. i cant remember the last time i was happy.
i cant remember anything but being angry all the time. i feel the need to hurt some one so bad i go crazy, i think of how i can hurt some one. ive had dream where ive killed ppl and liked it. this is my only hope, can some one please help me? is there any one here who goes through the same thing i do?
please some one help me before i hurt some one very bad