Parents, society and to be precise most of them

by Myra
(Malaysia)

I've extremely low-self esteem. Parents blamed me, even they are wrong. They always think they were right. Dad's family are full family of blamers. I guess he inherits it---part of trait?.Mom's not helping at all. She gets sensitive and starts blaming me. I heard too many false accusations, stupid conclusions and many idiots giving solutions that never meant to solve. Sometimes something so simple, I was the only one to get blamed badly. Talk about justice, that rarely happens. I'm a growing adult, I've needs too. They always talk about problems, themselves and things so not important. I've things ruin thanks to their so-called lecturing (Never help cause they keep blaming its my fault plus many stupid facts of problems arises). My siblings have to mature before their age. My parents are far from responsible in forms of maturity (except mom). Since mom gets older, she lost reasons too.

Society is hectic. I did my job, but people claim they did most work. I hate defending myself. I have this stupid thing called 'over-empathy'. So frequent backstabbers did get the credit, leaving me feel guilty and shame. Funny, they make the campus society believing shit about me. It's true reading this helps, but how about to recover the conditions when they already damage big parts of your life?
I need help. It's true they are smart and have great personality, but they belittle far too much. I was dehumane public most of the time for their selfish act. I got exploded with anger many times because of them in public.And they still can act nothing wrong and damn innocent. I looked evil, disgust and wrong. I hate them.