Mabe I am a good person...
I'm 15 homeschooled and try everything in my power to make my mom happy. 10 out of 10 times it doesent work. When I was very little (around 4ish) she would compare me to my friends and cousins (I greatly dislike those people now because of that). She told me Im the main cause of all of my family's problems after I lost an earing that she gave me ( I found it on the floor of my room). She told me all throughout my bringing up that if she dies or gets sick and goes to the hospital she'll blame me. She likes my best friend more than me. I'm an idiot, completely imcompentent, and lazy according to her. I, however make my brother breakfast, lunch, dinner, vacume, clean the bathrooms, help my brother study and other things. And yet she can be extremely nice every once in a blue moon ( mabe once every 3 months for a day or two). She tells me she loves me and she gave up her life, pay and retirements to homeschool me (the public school here is extremely violent) and I appericate that she did. But Ive alwalys felt I was never good enough. I've been secretely suicidial from when I was 8. My Gramma and Uncle apperciate me and tell me I'm good at things and my mom get very mad at them for that and says I don't deserve praise, and that it makes me think I'm perfect. My mom embarasses me, makes me the village idiot, and loves me despite my imperfections. I'm glad I read this article though. I've hated myself for as long as I can rember because of her mabe my Gramma and uncle are right about me being a good, talented person. But hopefully mabe il be good enough one day. Thanks for lisining no to many people do. God bless!!