Can't communicate with my Grandma
I'm female, 27. My mom passed away and she was always a buffer between me and my Grandma. We don't get along barely at all. And I live with her and I feel trapped.
I'm the only family member closest to her and not really her care taker because she doesn't need anything besides constant company and she doesn't drive.
I just can't talk to her without getting upset. Every time she cries and says she wishes she was dead. Then I feel like the bad guy and I can't open up to her.
But now I'm getting worse as in more easily angered or upset. She wants me to put the past away, but she has said a number of things that are unforgiveable. That I am selfish. That I didn't spend that much time with my mom. Things like this she says when she's upset, but i NEVER lose my cool enough to say hurtful things like she took over my mom's life and she's trying to take over mine.
Our typical conversations consist of a back and forth that goes no where:
"You're very negative"
"You're being negative"
"You don't listen to me"
"Well, you don't listen to me"
She asked me to not say anything negative towards her, but she constantly says negative things to me (or I percieve what she says to be negative).
Maybe I am also a difficult person?