totally negative....

I am in a super negative frame of mind lately. I am in a long term relationship and it has been a complete roller coaster for the past 11 years. At least once or twice a month i think of life without him.. We have not to much in common: on a day off he would like to sit in the house and relax as much as possible. I would rather get out take the kids and the dog for a long walk, clean up do laundry and so on. He can't understand why we have to go out to do everything? and why on family day did we need to take kids to science center. He is only interested in computers and computer games and a few other things like taking apart his jeep. None of this interest me. I cant tell him my true feelings cause he throws it back in my face and says its all me and that i am over reacting. For years I have been trying to get him to initiate a camping trip, or ski trip or walk into town or short vacation or anything. I feel as if i have become his mother.. I am so angry and so unhappy at myself i suppose because i want these things in my life and he is not at all like this and frankly never really has been. I am mainly upset that we have our 2 beautiful children and now i want to go and tear it all apart. But i am miserable and unhappy. I have a vision of what i would like for my life but i don't think that it will ever happen with him. I am tired and I am really exhausted. I went back to school for a year landed a great career and i should be happy about that but i am not... I am to negative and i need some direction on how to get out of this negative mind set... I am completely lost... any advice would be really appreciated...thanks

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Feb 27, 2012
Negative Partner
by: Amber Hayden

I am sending you a virtual hug.
I know from experience that it is hard when you love someone and you want one life and you find yourself in something totally different.
I, too was very angry. Mainly because I was hurt.

For me, I was upset not so much at him, but at myself for not telling him how I felt and instead - let it go on for many years. It took me a long time to figure out the "why".

I am not saying this would help you - but maybe going out once in awhile with the kids on your own will do you and your husband some good.

It will give you a chance to miss him and vice verse. If nothing else, it might give you a different perspective of "what do you want?"

Just my two cents worth.

Hugs,
Amber

Feb 29, 2012
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by: Anonymous

How about friends ,do you have couple friends with same age kids as yours? Moms can take their kids out ,do shopping and become friends to talk to. The guys can stay home and do whatever they do and guy talk. When everything is cool, then suggestions of having the guys join in,for a family outing. Sometimes ,I say sometimes, men need talk to their own kind, to remain they are in control as head of the family or just needs another male to talk to. Good luck!

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