Self esteem issuse need help!

by Kristen
(Massachusetts )

Hello, my name is Kristen and I have low self esteem. I've had it all my life and I feel like as I get older it just gets worse. Low self esteem peaks its ugly head in every aspect of my life. I try and try to eat healthier and exercise but when emotions over come me I tend to give up the exercise and eat my emotions then I give up. I am stuck in a job that I'm not happy with so I apply for different jobs but when it comes to interview time I don't have the confidence to show the interviewers that they should give me a chance. I've built up a great resume working in the industry I am in but sometimes when I go to an interview it's almost like I don't believe what is written down so why should they give me a chance I wonder why they don't call back for a second interview. On top of that, I'm so confused on what I want to do with my life, I've been thinking of going back to school for what? not sure but I never went to college and it's been 14 years since I set foot in a school environment. I'm a newlywed and married to an amazing man who loves me for exactly who I am. Low self esteem has affected me with dating. I never had many offers for dates, no guys chacing after me so I figured it was b/c I'm not skinny enough or pretty enough those years of not dates or having enough confidence to "put myself out there" really was a low blow to the self esteem but deep down I felt even if I wasn't those things I was a good person with a great personality and some day a guy would see that and then I met my husband who truly just loves me for me but still the low self esteem is still there sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough for him, maybe he wishes he married someone else and now we're trying to have a baby I really do not want my self esteem to spill over into my child's life. I want to be a good mom,parent and role model for my child. I don't want my low self esteem to ruin my future or my marriage, my career. I'm 32 years old SO my question is it too late for me? Have I had self esteem issues for so long that I'll never change? I want too I just have to believe I can and honestly I don't know how

Thanks!
~Kristen